get mad.

the last week(s) in a word: crazy. ok, let’s face it - me trying to cap anything in one word is like asking a kid not to run amuck in a toy store. unlikely. but then again, crazy does cover it. the word ‘crazy’ implies a lot of things. in a nutshell.

DISCLAIMER: this post has nothing to do with politics, social issues or anything else related. it is strictly personal experience due to the misfortune of having said bullshitters surrounding my work and personal experiences in life. i happen to be a very passionate, loving person. that is, until i finally reach a breaking point, at which time i put my foot down and take no more. then i kick some ass with some words, though small words so they have no problems understanding. one would hope anyway.

i am amazed at how some people make it through life on a daily basis. not even because they are just dumb, ignorant, disrespectful or even undeserving but also because of how selfish they are, showing no regard for others. amazed. at this age, while many are still growing into their big boy, big girl panties, you would think most are at least responsible enough to manage their own lives. negative. i keep hearing that it will all catch up to them someday, and perhaps that is true, but why do we cut slack for them? why are we - well me - somehow still paying for their lack of responsibility? i work hard, every single day. do i have it all? no, but i get it done. i don’t feel the need to bullshit my way through anything. i go about life in a mostly honest way (not even i am perfect). i don’t meddle in other people’s business. i treat people fairly. i don’t steal. i pay for my mistakes. i love wholeheartedly. i don’t take advantage. i respect others. i appreciate everything and everyone. i do all the things I was taught as a child in order to live a healthy life. is that the problem? are some just neglected an upbringing that teaches respect? responsibility? even so, there are plenty of things my parents never prepared me for, however i still managed to educate myself through it. or is it laziness? maybe these people got used to just getting by, realizing that there are things they could leave unfinished knowing someone else would get the job done for them.

regardless, i am annoyed. i am so irritated that my generally ‘just let it roll off the shoulders’ attitude is being haunted by thoughts of various other actions. i am tired of taking it easy on people because of their less fortunate situations. we all have problems. we all experience the same misfortunes, the same struggles, the same obstacles. maybe to a different degree, but that doesn’t mean we deserve any less. most of the situations these bullshitters are in are because they got themselves there.

ohh you ate too much? to the point where you weigh 347 pounds? ok, maybe you should try moderation. exercise even.

ohh you don’t have money to pay your bills or feed your kids? hmm, maybe you should have thought twice about using that money to feed your drug habit instead.

ohh, your friends aren’t speaking to you anymore? yeah, maybe you shouldn’t have neglected them or used them for getting just what you need.

ohh, you say that bridge is burned? well, maybe you shouldn’t have started the fire.

ohh, you’re in the hospital because your husband nearly beat the life out of you? you should have left 3 black eyes ago.

forgive me, but i really think people just need to hear the truth sometimes .. hell, all the time.

there are three types of people who will finish reading this feeling angry.
1. those that failed to read my disclaimer.
2. the bullshitters to which i am referring.
3. the hard-working, deserving individuals who are also tired of having to witness said bullshitters breezing their way through life without appropriately meeting consequence.

grow up. you are responsible for your own happiness. i sure as hell don’t have it all, but am i happy with myself at the end of the day? yep. grow some mental age and accept responsibility. if you don’t, karma is one mean girl that will never forget you.